Sayings I felt I needed to share....

It is only through letting our heart break that we discover something unexpected: The heart cannot actually break - it can only break open ...
To live with an open heart is to experience life
full-strength.

John Welwood

This one, when I read it, I thought of my Auntie La <3 <3

Coming empty-handed, going empty-handed -- that is human.
When you are born, where do you come from?
When you die, where do you go?
Life is like a floating cloud which appears.
Death is like a floating cloud which disappears.

The floating c
loud itself originally does not exist.
Life and death, coming and going, are also like that.
But there is one thing which always remains clear.
It is pure and clear, not depending on life and death.

Then what is the one pure and clear thing?

Zen Master Seung Sahn

So many things have happened in the past few days. I'll start from Thursday morning. I did my washing and while they were in the dryer, I looked for my phone and I couldn't find it. Later, I then realized that I had put it in my pocket after yoga, and found it in the dryer. Good job, Heidi. Brilliant, so now my phone doesn't work.
In the early afternoon, I got a skype call from my father notifying me of my auntie's death. We knew it was coming but I didn't want to acknowledge it, just like last time. I cried-I don't know for how long- but it brought floor mates to my door. I got comforted which calmed me and made me feel slightly better after letting it all go. But two feelings I remember feeling was sadness and guilt. I just feel so guilty, I remember, back when my dear Uncle John got diagnosed with his cancer, I was going to shave my head for him, for the second time, but because he said 'its okay' I didn't do it. When my Auntie La in New Zealand got diagnosed, she asked me and my mum to shave our heads with her, when she goes bald, but I said no. I just feel guilty. You never can know, if I had shaved my heads both times, maybe with the money raised they could have found a cure by now...and they wouldn't have passed away...

Auntie La taught me how to ride. <3 This photo was taken in 2007.

Around half an hour after, I convinced myself to go to class. It was only 1 1/2 hours so it wasn't too long, (although I don't remember any of it). Then the RA came to make sure that I was okay, and we went for a walk which was very nice and calming. Fresh. Lovely. We went to a park which wasn't too far away, much nicer than the trails I ran...so that's where I went running this morning. That evening, my floor mates came back and gave me a card which they had signed and sugary timbits to help me feel better. I really appreciated it! :)
Then yesterday morning, when I woke up, I never realized how dehydrated you get when you cry..because I was so thirsty Friday morning. I went to class- and honestly, I don't remember any of it either. I don't remember what I did yesterday, but this morning I went for a run and it was really nice and refreshing, I went to a park called Buttertubs Marsh which was the other park that the RA spoke about. It was really quite nice. Then I went grocery shopping, I walked down 20 minutes to the Quality Foods shop and stocked up on some items. Honestly, I don't know what I have for homework this weekend, but I'm sure I'll figure out what it is soon.
My thoughts and love are being sent to my family in New Zealand, I love you.

Yoga

Just another real short and sweet update. I had my first Yoga class here, and it was really different from what I'm used to. I'm used to slow but intense yoga, where we take the time to ground ourselves etc etc. This class, however, was fast and almost like aerobics. I almost didn't have time to figure out what some stretches were....and there were quite a few new ones too. But overall, it was a very good yoga class!! I love it haha. Even though it's so different. It seemed to me like this teacher wasn't actually qualified to teach yoga, but she ran all the other courses and obviously has history of yoga, so she was allowed to run it. But it didn't seem like a genuine yoga practice, but, nevertheless, it was a very good practice! I'm so glad I signed up! hah

Auditioning High!

I know I already did my post for today...but I JUST GOT BACK FROM MY FIRST AUDITION!!! AND I TOTALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE DO DRUGS WHEN THEY CAN DO THEATRE? IT'S BLOODY FANTASTIC!!!
I just wanted to say!! Amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't know if I'll get it, but I had fun which is the main thing!! So much fun!! Lots of fun, muahahaha!

Quick Update

So today, Stella (the chinese exchange student in thea 111), this afternoon, introduced me to a Korean exchange student. Super nice fellow, haha, it was really funny to watch his expressions as he asked about the Korean music that I knew..hah lol. It was totally awesome haha. Um, this evening I have an audition for Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead which should be interesting. This will be my first ever audition so it should be fun haha but we'll see lol So for the next hour I should be studying and then I'm off! AAHHH wish me luck haha

Wonderful Friends!

Wow. I had a small break from updating for a while, but now it's back to everyday lol
I guess that can be a good thing because that means things are happening to me hah! Anyway, I met up with Stella before theatre class to help explain an assignment, although I don't feel like a did a very good job. I had to explain a hamartia and parapitaya. haha, theatre words, hamartia is a 'fatal flaw leading to the downfall of a tragic hero/heroine.' and a peripeteia is the reversal of circumstances. haha, it was fun. Then Stella gave me a gift which was absolutely amazing!!

It's a hairpin! It's soo beautiful, isn't it? I love it! Thank you Stella!

Such an wonderful gift and she's such a nice girl too! She's going to introduce me to 2 people, which is super awesome! Yay! More people! haha :)
This evening, I'm going food shopping! I'm running low on quite a few items so I better get moving if I'm to do that! Also auditions for the play were held this evening and then I heard from the professor that they are also held tomorrow night, so I'll be going then! Yay! I won't miss it!

Sunday Party

I had a blast today! Although it did start off a little...slow. haha. This morning I was supposed to meet Sam at her house for a party around 11 and of course, I had a blonde moment, so I didn't end up leaving until after 11 am...after getting a text saying where are you? oops. Good start. So I end up being an hour late, but once I got there it was super fun! I met 6 new people, finding out one of them has a class with me, my other theatre class haha. Yay! There were 3 Chinese students, I think they were either exchange or international, I'm not sure, the other 4 were Japanese students yay! haha, it was awesome. I love hearing the Japanese language being spoken it is super awesome. Anyway, so I arrived, and they were finishing cooking this huge delicious meal of Japanese food, it was super yummy!

Yeah, it was yummy!! be jealous! Delicious! After we just played games which was lots of fun and created lots of laughter! I definitely want to keep in contact with these awesome people! Here is another photo of us, with a couple people missing..

Overall, it was a super awesome day! I hope to do it again soon!