So many things have happened in the past few days. I'll start from Thursday morning. I did my washing and while they were in the dryer, I looked for my phone and I couldn't find it. Later, I then realized that I had put it in my pocket after yoga, and found it in the dryer. Good job, Heidi. Brilliant, so now my phone doesn't work.
In the early afternoon, I got a skype call from my father notifying me of my auntie's death. We knew it was coming but I didn't want to acknowledge it, just like last time. I cried-I don't know for how long- but it brought floor mates to my door. I got comforted which calmed me and made me feel slightly better after letting it all go. But two feelings I remember feeling was sadness and guilt. I just feel so guilty, I remember, back when my dear Uncle John got diagnosed with his cancer, I was going to shave my head for him, for the second time, but because he said 'its okay' I didn't do it. When my Auntie La in New Zealand got diagnosed, she asked me and my mum to shave our heads with her, when she goes bald, but I said no. I just feel guilty. You never can know, if I had shaved my heads both times, maybe with the money raised they could have found a cure by now...and they wouldn't have passed away...

Auntie La taught me how to ride. <3 This photo was taken in 2007.

Around half an hour after, I convinced myself to go to class. It was only 1 1/2 hours so it wasn't too long, (although I don't remember any of it). Then the RA came to make sure that I was okay, and we went for a walk which was very nice and calming. Fresh. Lovely. We went to a park which wasn't too far away, much nicer than the trails I ran...so that's where I went running this morning. That evening, my floor mates came back and gave me a card which they had signed and sugary timbits to help me feel better. I really appreciated it! :)
Then yesterday morning, when I woke up, I never realized how dehydrated you get when you cry..because I was so thirsty Friday morning. I went to class- and honestly, I don't remember any of it either. I don't remember what I did yesterday, but this morning I went for a run and it was really nice and refreshing, I went to a park called Buttertubs Marsh which was the other park that the RA spoke about. It was really quite nice. Then I went grocery shopping, I walked down 20 minutes to the Quality Foods shop and stocked up on some items. Honestly, I don't know what I have for homework this weekend, but I'm sure I'll figure out what it is soon.
My thoughts and love are being sent to my family in New Zealand, I love you.